This soundtrack you’ve been living with wasn’t recorded overnight. Instead, it’s a compilation of messages you’ve heard, impressions and impacts you’ve assimilated, and conclusions you’ve reached over the course of your life.
The source of this pain may be rooted in childhood, meaning you’re so accustomed to feeling this way, you may experience anger, fear, and guilt afresh at dredging up these truths.
As more people become aware of depression, they recognize its presence in their own lives. The nameless dread, the constant fear, the ever-present weight takes on a name. It has now become a “diagnosis.”
Perhaps you have forgotten who you really are. Maybe you’ve never known. What causes a negative image of yourself? Your life story holds some valuable clues to solving the mystery.
Are you getting on with your life with courage and enthusiasm, knowing that somehow you will fulfill your dreams, or have you all but thrown in the towel? Your answers reflect how you see yourself today but they also may suggest that you are still believing and living out too many of the lies your life script may have been feeding you.
Now that you may have recognized help is needed in your life, how do you know where to go to get the right help? There needs to be an internal connection (trust) for this to work. Frankly, it can be quite a circuitous path to find the help you need.
A search through your past is not meant to assign blame; it is, rather, a mature look at your family to discover what might contribute to depression. It is so important for you to be able to identify the burdens from past relationships that may be slowing down your rate of recovery.
Sadly, many of us grow into adulthood with a list of childhood truths that can include many false and incomplete truths. Families, for good or ill, give us our first lessons about ourselves.