Turning over your life to God as the navigator is not easy. It requires you to give up control over your life, listen to God, and pay attention to His answer.
If the parenting model you grew up with was fundamentally flawed, you may be at a loss to determine what is normal and what is not, what is helpful and what is harmful.
Of all the ways we can respond to each other, you can choose love, mercy, and forgiveness. These will first enrich your life, then bless the lives of others.